Resolution #3 - Wedding weight by 40

So this year I have a big birthday coming up. I'm gonna be honest - I'm pretty freaked out. I'm fit-ish, have a youthful outlook and attitude (read: WAY liberal), and I'm told I look young (no sun - EVER). I just can't reconcile how I look and feel with this...NUMBER. Vain, shallow, just an age, everyone goes through the exact same thing, blah blah blah. It doesn't matter. I'm pretty sure I'm the only person who ever turned 40 in the whole history of time with an accurate sense of the horror of aging in terms of what it will do to my face and what it means to ME. ME ME ME ME ME. Yes. I know how I sound. Crazy. And like not such a great person with not such a great perspective on things. I swear I'm usually more...Oh hells bells. I'm an utter nutter.

Anyway, back to the resolution thing. I'm about 10 lbs up from my wedding weight, which was my skinniest EVER. Totally not maintainable, but still. I'd like to get back there for at least 1 glorious moment before I turn...23. (See, I can't even bear to type the number again)

I've also had some EUREKA moments about weight loss in the last few months. You know that actress Ginnifer Goodwin? With the short hair and the really pretty face? Well, she caught holy Hades a few months back for saying that she's been on Weight Watchers since she was 15, and that she's genetically predispositioned to be a much larger woman than she is presently. I think the issue people had was with her body image and admission that she is perpetually on a diet. I disagree. I think she needs a formal program like WW to help her understand what she can and can't eat in a day. I think this because I too need a formal program telling me what I can and can't eat in a day. Without said program, I'm likely to eat my own body in UTZ chip form. (If you don't know what UTZ chips are, please visit the Mid-Atlantic region immediately and buy yourself a bag. Start with the regular chips, work your way around to the Honey Barbecue, and then finish up with the Crab chips. No chip will ever be the same to you again).

Ok. so I have a lot more to say about weight and body image but I'll save it. No one wants to read a Unibomber-style manifesto disguised as a blog post.